Waking up feeling horrible...

And cry myself to sleep again...Maybe it's the time of the month cos i feel unusually ugly & insecu...

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Sometimes, i hate my job

I just want to be a normal likeable person, not a perfectionist b*tch...

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It's The Time of The Month

Lost my motivation Just want to do nothing & eat Wanna cancel all plans Feeling exhausted for no reason (i barely do anything)...

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Scared

Of a potential heart break.It's about a week before my period and i think the PMDD started kicking in. The indication is actually quite simple. My eyes feels like a leaking bucket of water, i just can't hold my tears even for the smallest trigger.I've been taking a supplement called evening primrose oil (EPO) that supposedly balance my hormones, but since it's only about 1-2 weeks so i'm not so sure...

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New Year New Me Bullsh*t?

I stopped writing my new year resolutions i think when i was in college because i realized that i didn't really do what i write lol. Some cases i didn't even try. And yeah until now i do still feel reluctant to write anything cos i feel like i'm gonna fail. But i think i figured out what was the problem that i failed to do those years of resolutions. I too focused (and ambitious) on the goals, without...

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The Balance

Between still making the money needed to make life worth living, minimizing the guilt of not being able to do my work well, and not to burden my parents too much. Hope i can find it so...

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The switch

Hope i can find the switch to turn off my emotions, because i have too much of it. And it's tiring. And it's taking away my sleep. And lead me to another satan's circle.And it's making me ugly. I can't get rid of these dark circles if i keep on crying...

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